Be Happy Anyway

Be Happy Anyway
From Brave Girls Club

Friday, May 27, 2011

To Simpler Times

...when we only had one car.
...when walking to McDonald's with Caitlin to share a Happy Meal with the three dollars in change I found in the couch was the highlight of the day.
...when playing in the courtyard of our apartment chasing squirrels and watching birds was fun.
...when gas was cheap and I could throw Caitlin in the back of the car and drive for hours looking at the countryside or imagining what it would be like to own this house or that one.
I am not sure how it gets away from you...
...that love for simplicity.
...those carefree days.
...those chaos-free times.

Granted, I probably didn't like getting up at 5:30 in the morning to drive my husband to work just so I could have the car, but in the big scheme of things that was nothing.

As I look at my house, the house I dreamed of having, the house that now has water damage from years of a gutter that just wouldn't drain right, the house that needs new carpet and a paint job....I wonder
...Can you go back to living simply?
...Can you be happy living in a two bedroom townhouse?
...Can you go back to living a day's drive away from your mother?
...Can you be happy being a stay at home mom?

I don't know, but it is something that is looming overhead as moving day draws nearer.

When we move to Missouri, I am unsure what awaits.
...Will I find another job?
...Will I want another job?
...Will selling skin care be satisfying enough (emotionally/financially?)
...Will be able to get along with less?

I am seriously considering staying at/working from home in this next chapter of my life. I have two children who take a lot of time and attention, something I haven't been able to do as well as I would have liked to these past few years.
...Will I stay organized?
...Will I stay motivated?
...Will I like it as much as I think I will?

I hope so.


Roban said...

I think simple is a wonderful way to live. I've never been able to stay home, and in my 20s and early 30s I wouldn't have chosen to. Now that I have Hannah and am older, I wish that I could have and would do it now if it would work out. You have a lot to think about. I'm sure whatever happens will be what needs to happen at that time in your life.

By the way, Caitlin's self-portrait is an amazing work of art. I can see her illustrating children's books. She's that good.

Rieni said...

You have a lot to think about, and I just can say, follow your hart.

MJ said...

Gosh, it seems that we are pondering many of the same things except I haven't been blogging about it. The questions and answers are always so difficult.

miruspeg said...

You have made a start by asking the questions Annemarie.
When your next journey begins these questions will be answered quite simply I am sure.

I wish you all the luck in the world dear friend as you begin your next journey.

Big hugs
Peggy xxxx

Linda said...

I ponder these things too. I remember fondly the days when we had just one car. I would push Gary and Nancy to town in the twin stroller. We would go to the Winn's store and browse. The only place in town to get a coke or ice cream cone was Dairy Queen. Sometimes I think progress isn't progress at all.

Thinkie said...

It will be all right!
Can't you get a part time job if you're in doubt about working outside the home or not?

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