Be Happy Anyway

Be Happy Anyway
From Brave Girls Club

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Things I Miss About You

It's 7 a.m. and by now I would have texted you "Good morning". It seems strange that two people who lived so far apart could become so integral in each other's lives, yet we did. I'm going to miss our morning wake up texts and end of the day Skype sessions. I will miss driving to work every morning with you letting me talk your ear off about traffic, the songs on the radio, my crazy students, the busy day that lay ahead. No longer will I get to count the number of sleeps until you came back Home.



I no longer enjoy tv. It is now just noise because I don't have you there to make running commentaries on instant message. Watching Diners, Drive-ins and Dives is less fun because it reminds me of all of the restaurants on our list that I will have to try without you... and I WILL be trying them without you. I know you would have wanted me to. 

Your brother recommended a whole bunch of audio books to listen to. I checked out your library and downloaded them all. I listened to one on the way home from your funeral. I could just imagine you laughing out loud at certain parts. Your laughter was one of my favorite things about you. You would throw your head back and sometimes laugh so hard your whole body would shake. The smile that lingered made me understand what a beautiful person you are. 

You never understood how a "beautiful girl like" me (your words,  not mine) could love someone like you. I had to often remind you that it wasn't nice to Yuck My Yum. Eventually you accepted that I loved you and adored your beautiful face, loving eyes and calm, patient demeanor. You never once raised your voice at me or my children even when I could be difficult. You brought out a side of me that learned to be patient. 



There are so many more things I will miss about you, but suffice it to say that like that crazy rose tattoo on your ankle that looked like an alien,  you left a permanent mark on my life and in my heart. And while this pain will slowly ease, the impact of your love will remain as a reminder that there are good guys out there, and I had the brief yet special privilege of having you in my life. 

I miss you Bobby. 

PS - Your daughter is taking me next month to finally get that tattoo we kept planning. I hope you like it.

(Note: Bobby passed away due to a blood clot to the heart after doing what he loved - mountain biking.)

6 comments:

Julie Lyles Carr said...

Sweet friend~~my heart aches for you. Prayers and thoughts sent your way with much love~

MJ said...

My heart aches for you too. I am so glad that he brought such light and laughter to your life. Sending prayers your way.

1kssrn said...

You are right that the pain will ease in time. However Bobby will always be with you. In your heart, soul, mind, and perhaps in the breeze that blows in your ear. Things that may happen that seem so random or coincidental, just may be Bobby letting you know that he is near. I pray for you so that you may be comforted and uplifted in happiness. Hugs/Love Kim

miruspeg said...

Thank you for sharing a small part of the short time you and Bobby had together.
I knew he was a keeper when you first told me about him a couple of years ago.
It breaks my heart that you have lost Bobby because I knew how happy he made you.
Take care my dear friend and I'll be sending all my light and love to you daily.
Big heart hugs
Peggy xxxxxxx

Roban said...

I am sitting here catching up on your blog and feeling sad but happy for you at the same time. Bobby sounds like such an incredible person. He was someone you needed it seems that brought out the best in you and made you aware of how wonderful YOU really are. I'm so sorry that your time together was so short, but it sounds like it was a happy, vibrant time infused with love and laughter.

ABW said...

Never yuck a yum!

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